"The best love never has a reason. I just had to look at him and there was no reason to look anywhere else ever."
-Christopher Pike, Whisper of Death
"I don't want to live. I want to love first, and live incidentally." -Zelda Fitzgerald, letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald, 1919
Listen. It's morning. Soon I'll see your hand reach
for my watch, the water will aggitate in the kettle,
but listen. Traffic. I want your dreams first. And
to slide my leg beneath yours before the day opens.
Wait. We slept late. You'll be moody, the phone
will ring, someone wanting something. Let me put
my hands in your hair. Who I was last night I would
be again. This is how the future holds me, how depression
wakes with us; my body shelters it. Let me
put my head on your breast. I know nothing lasts.
I would try to hold you back, not out of meanness
but fear. Oh my practical, my worldly-wise. You
know how the body falters, falls in on itself. Tell me
that we will never want from each other what we
cannot have. Lie. It's morning.
“Venus,” Travis says, looking up. “Huh. There’s the Big Dipper. I know that one.”
I watch his neck move when he talks, the soft outline of his Adam’s apple shifting underneath his skin. They made him cut his hair short again in the group home, and he’s mad about this, but I think it looks nice. You can see his face again, the angles of the bones in his cheeks. He is beautiful. Please God, I think, looking up. I will love him forever. Please. I close my eyes, and when I open them, I see a streak of light shooting across the sky. It’s already gone.
“Did you see that?” Travis asks. His hand is on my arm.
I open my mouth, but I can’t speak. Mr. Torvik told us that shooting stars are not really stars at all but meteorites, burning their way through our atmosphere, sometimes landing in the oceans and in the middle of farms. He said you could make wishes on them if you like, but they are really just pieces of rock falling down from the sky, and they could land on your head and kill you just as you look up to make a wish. Really, they’re just rocks. They don’t care about your wishes at all.
But still. It’s too much of a coincidence, to see a sign like that in the sky, just as I was asking for what I want the most. It was over before I knew what I was seeing, but now I know that, again, I’ve been blessed, quick as a wink from above.
- The Center of Everything,
by Laura Moriarty.
Probably for every man there is at least one city that sooner or later turns into a girl. How well or how badly the man actually knew the girl doesn’t necessarily affect the transformation. She was there, and she was the whole city, and that’s that.
-- J.D. Salinger, "A Girl I Knew"
A - Available: Yessir.
A - Age: Sixteen.
A - Annoyance: Fake girls, obviously.
B - Best Friends: Jordynn, Laura, Nicole.
B - Bars: Nicole Labonte.
B - Birthday: July 11 1989.
C - Crush: 2. Ongoing + embarassing.
C - Car: Whateva.
C - Cat: Kittens ONLY.
D - Dead Pet's Name: PeeDee =(
D - Dads Name: Keith
D - Dog: Oliver.. asshole.
E - Easiest person to talk to: Michie.
E - Eggs: Gooooeeeyyyy eggs <3
E - Email: jaclynharrick
F - Favorite color: white?
F - Food: Pasta + bread + salad.
F - Foreign Slang: Hhhhhokay?
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Sugar coated gummy wormsssss.... sourrrr.
G - God: Interesting. Semi-bullshit.
G - Good Times: With good people.
H - Hair: Natural.
H - Height: Five Five and a Half.
H - Happy: Depending.
I - Ice Cream: Superkid.
I - Instrument: Trumpet - grade 7 & 8 =)
I - Idol: Monica from Love and Basketball.
J - Jewelry: I like I like.
J - Job: =( McFuckingAsshole.
J - Jokes: Are...funny..
K - Kids: I waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaant <3 =)
K - Karate: Yum.
K - Kung Fu: Hahaha.. Ryan.
L - Love: Is lovely.
L - Longest Car Ride: 2 Days, with stops. To Disneyy.
L - Longest Relationship: Hehe not long.
M - Milk Flavor: Chocolate.
M - Mothers Name: Sue.
M - Movie Last Watched: Love and Basketball.. ONLY the happy parts.
N - Number of Siblings: One.
N - Northern or Southern: I.. don't care.
N - Name: Jackie.
O - One Wish: Mom.
O - One Phobia: Sharks, death.
O - Otter Pop: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH.
P - Parents, are they married or divorced: Er, technically, divorced.
P - Part of your appearance you like best: Nostrils.
P - Part of your Personality you like best: Mellow.
Q - Quick or Slow: Depending.
Q - Quail: "Why can't we hunt something BIG GAME!?" ...... "FUCKING human being"
Q - Queen, which was the best: Monarchy's dumb.
R - Reason to smile: Future.
R - Reality TV Show: BIG BROTHER.
R - Right or Left: Right.. left handed people scare me a bit.
S - Song band Heard: Errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr k.
S - Season: Summer by far. Being cold.. sucks.
S - Sex: Feeeeeeeeemale.
T - Time you woke up: 10:10
T - Time Now: 12:58
T - Time for bed: Depending.
U - Unknown Fact about me: It's hard for me to have respect for people.
U - Unicorns: Are dumb.
U - You are: not wanting to go to work.
V - Vegetable you hate: I like pretty much allllll.
V - Vegetable you love: All of 'em.
W - Worst Habits: Worrying.
W - Where are you going to travel next: Florida =)
X - X-Rays: Okay.
X - X-Rated: Mmmmmm.
X - Xylophone: Okay.
Y - Year you were born: 1989
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: Happy.
Z - Zoo Animal: Monkkkey.
Z - Zodiac: Cancer.
Z - Zoolander: semi-dumb semi-funny.
i need love, love to ease my mind. i need to find, find someone to call mine.
but mama said you can't hurry love.. no, you'll just have to wait. she said love don't come easy, it's a game of give and take. i can't hurry love, no, you just have to wait. you've got to just, give it time, no matter how long it takes. but, how many heartaches must i stand before i find the love to let me live again. right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on, when I feel my strength, yeah it's almost gone... i remember mama said you can't hurry love, noo you'll just have to wait. she said love don't come easy, it's a game of give and take. how long must i wait, how much more must i take before loneliness, will cause my heart, heart to break? no, i cant bare to live my life alone. i grow impatient for a love to call my own.. but when I feel that i, i can't go on, these precious words keep me hangin' on.... i remember mama said you can't hurry love. no, you'll just have to wait. she said love don't come easy, it's a game of give and take. i can't hurry love.. no, you'll just have to wait. she said just, give it time, no matter how long it takes, gotta wait! no love, love don't come easy.. but i keep on waiting, anticipating for that soft voice to talk to me at night, for some tender arms to hold me tight.
i keep waiting, i keep on waiting.. but it ain't easy (it ain't easy). When mama said you can't hurry love. no, you'll just have to wait. she said, just give it time, no matter how long it takes. she said love don't come easy.. it's a game of give and take.
- You can't hurry love
i said i wanna touch the earth, i wanna break it in my hands. i wanna grow something wild and unruly. i wanna sleep on the hard ground, in the comfort of your arms, on a pillow of bluebonnets.. in a blanket made of stars. oh it sounds good to me. i said cowboy take me away, fly this girl as high as you can into the wild blue. set me free oh i pray, closer to heaven above and closer to you, closer to you. i wanna walk and not run, i wanna skip and not fall. i wanna look at the horizon and not see a building standing tall. i wanna be the only one, for miles and miles.. except for maybe you, and your simple smile. oh it sounds good to me, yes it sounds so good to me. cowboy take me away, fly this girl as high as you can into the wild blue. set me free oh i pray, closer to heaven above and closer to you, closer to you. i said i wanna touch the earth, i wanna break it in my hands. i wanna grow something wild and unruly. oh it sounds so good to me. cowboy take me away, fly this girl as high as you can into the wild blue. set me free oh i pray, closer to heaven above and closer to you, closer to you. closer to you. cowboy take me away.. closer to you.
- Cowboy take me away
You love me, especially different every time. You keep me on my feet happily excited.. by your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence. You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me. You school me, give me some things to think about. Ignite me, you invite me, you co-write me, you love me, you like me, you incite me.
You're different and special.You're different and special in every way imaginable. You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails. You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new.Oh when you touch me I just can't control it. When you touch me, I just can't hold it.The emotion inside of me, I can feel it.
- He Loves Me
I want University.
That way I won't have to be surrounded by stupid pieces of fucking trash that like to call themselves like, human beings.
I want to leave everyone.